Lake-Schmake

Tonight was my friends and my weekly night out. We try to see each other once a week every week usually on wednesdays. We became friends after working together at Zebs. Generally you are not able to translate work friends to actual friends but C and I managed it. However we found that if we left our meetings to chance we never saw each other. So wednesdays became our thing.

Tonight we saw The Lake House. Can I say--who didn't see that bus coming? Also the whole movie I was like why doesn't she just google him? You can find anyone on the internet nowadays. At the end of the movie I looked over and both C and Kate (yes she was able to drag herself away from her homework for the evening) both had the tears. Not so much with me. Don't get me wrong I was sad but for another reason. I was going to write a whole blog about it but as I was catching up on reading some of my favorite blogs and I found one that Liza Palmer wrote in her Conversations With the Fat Girl blog. If you are reading this go there now. It is justs what I was going to write, just done better. Do we really set us up for a fall with all of the books and movies that we see nowadays? Who can match up with the ideals that are built up over the years?

Oh yeah and what happened to the dog? Did it die? Was it the one casualty of the time loop or whatever?

Anyway if you need me you can catch me standing out by the mailbox. Right after I buy one.
SAK

Painful things

I am actually writing! It is still pretty painfull but not as much as this would be. (Thank you Viggo) Just a quick post tonight because I have written 10 pages and my fingers feel like they are vibrating. I can't wait for tomorrow to write some more. But tonight Monarch of the Glen!

I just wanted to take this time to tell Kate that I don't hate her for moving. You have to do what will make you happy and eventually I will support you of course but right now I am just feeling very sad. We both knew that we couldn't live together forever like we planned when we were kids because --well we are not kids anymore. That doesnt mean that I relish that this day has come, I will miss you sooooooo much! And I know that we don't say it enough but I love you bunches.

Big Love and Bigger Peace
SAK

Ach ye bonnie lass

Okay- I spent the entire evening watching episodes of Monarch of the Glen. The whole night. When I finished one disk I just went out side and grabbed the next one from my car. That crazy clan! I wonder if I could get a job easier in Scotland than I can in Ireland. Right now the Highlands are looking pretty good to me. One of the items from my life list is to live abroad for a year. Could you imagine it? None of my friends have ever done that before. Talk of throwing oneself out of ones element.



Every day I feel like I need to get moving on this list. I feel that every day is just slipping from my hands like water. Days are slipping to months, which then slip to years. I am helpless to stop it. I have a lot of grandeious ideas on my list and yes I do chip off a couple each year but it is just not fast enough for me. How does one even begin to pack up your life and move to a new place. The ties that hold me here grow stronger- well they feel stronger anyway. When you make a list of it the only things that are holding me here is my job and my few close friends. I am not in contact with any of my family, I am perenally not in a relationship, and I have no idea where I am going to live in about 2 months. My friends have there own lives that I feel like I can’t horn in on. I can’t expect others to base their life on me and I wouldn’t want them to. (okay who wouldn’t want that.) I am just saying that my friends are not sitting around making decisions with me as a deciding factor.

If I knew what was best for me I would take the opportunity of Kate leaving to make a run for it myself. I mean god-damnit already grow up!

Okay once again that was very maudlin. End on a good note- Things that I have accomplished from my list
1. I have been to Ireland
2. I have signed up to be on the bone marrow registary
3. I have learned to scuba dive.
4. Plans have begun for Italy07

Soon I will have scene all of the Monarch of the Glens and I will be able to get back to my life. Perhaps for Halloween this year I will be a bonnie lass. Did I mention that Hottie McHotHot is Scottish?
Luba-Luba,
SAK

in-sper-a-tion!

Today was a good day, a very good day. It was one of those days where you find a bag of the good cookies hidden away. Okay so that may have been the only thing that was good today but it was the really good ones--I'm talking Pepperidge Farms Soft Baked Dark Chocolate Chunk. You don't get any better than that. I looked on the other side of one of the couches and poof there they were. Almost a whole bag--yum.

It was so busy at my job today that we had trouble keeping up. Those days are fun, the hustle bustle, the willy nilly, the hurley burley. Okay now I am just high on Nantucket Cookies.

Also my writing drive came back! I thought it was gone forever, that perhaps it had left me because I was doing nothing with it other than writing notes on orders at the store. My insperation said 'hey you- you suck! I'm leaving you for the death metal band next door.' I am going to eat dinner and try my hand at some writing tonight. Of course this may just be because Netflix sent me the wrong disk and I have nothing to watch tonight. I am refusing to watch tv.

Wish me wit, creativity, and nimble fingers.
(And more cookies because I have already polished off my bag)
SAK

Bad Moon On the Rise

I am sad. Bad things are on there way, I can feel it in my bones. Summer is never a good time for me. Last summer was a horrible. I think that this one has the potential to be even worse. I should have known when I went to my financial planner brimming with personal and civic pride only to be shot down by a young man sporting a dry erase marker and smiley faces. Smiley faces and frown faces. Not kidding. When he started to 'explain' mutual funds by saying that when they go up we're happy (insert smiley face here), but then sometimes they can go down which makes us unhappy (insert frowney face here). I don't know if he was doing it because I looked stupid, like I had never taken an economics class in my life, or if he did it because I am a woman and math is to difficult for little ol' me. I really hope that its just because I was stupid. I hate it when people think that I can't do things just because I am a woman. I think that I will keep looking for someone else to keep my business.

The worst is on its way. I will fill in later. I ran out of time. Work was crazy busy, not just with orders but every call was someone with a big problem. Today is Thursday, usually those days are just on Monday and Friday.

Wa Wa Wa... must. write. something. cheery. I love this artist. I have never seen one in person but I look forward to the day that I do. I later I will talk more about Parkeharrison.

Oo- and another good thing! I finally got my email a settled ireland05@adelphia.net also I found that I am able to go to the adelphia web site on other computers and check my email... wahoo!

Batton down the hatches- stormy weather ahead!
SAK

Adult Behavior

Man I am beat, I have had a sinus headache for what feels like one week. It has been so humid here that the air just feels like it is pressing down on me. You can feel it slam into you as soon as you walk out a door.

Tomorrow I am planning the rest of my life--my financial life that is. I am talking with a financial planner at my friends bank. I don’t know whether I am feeling proud that I am being a responsible adult or depressed that I am now a responsible adult. All I know is that I don’t want to be one of those really people who are eighty and have to work full time to survive. Maybe this will give me the same feeling that voting does. If you don’t know that feeling one your stupid especially if you’re a woman and two go out and vote. It doesn’t matter if it’s a big election, local, state, secret society, there is nothing quite like the feeling that voting give you.

VOTE! PLAN FOR THE FUTURE! HELP OLD PEOPLE ACROSS THE STREET! RECYCLE!
(okay strike the old people one, they give me the hebie-gebies)

Big Love and a Big Mac
Stephanie

Ahoy there! Crappy movie ahead!

What's the Upside of Anger? I am guessing more anger. Could she was angry because her movie was so stupid. I haven't felt this angry at a movie that in a very long time. I am talking The Hours angry people. Now there was two hours of my life that I will never get back. There should be a warning on these movies. You know just a heads up that says "hey crappy movie with no plot, where everyone obseses about how unhappy they are ahead." Just a suggestion.

On the upside it was Kates netflix so I didn't have to waste one of mine on a bad one. My netflix is another that Donna recommended Monarch of the Glen. I am hooked.

Oh well I popped in a new movie to try to clear off the depression of the last one. Mirror Mask. I have scene it before. It is very innovative, I definatly reccomend it.

he-he!

All right I admit it-I spent the rest of the evening watching National Treasure. Did anyone really expect anything else?

Card Carrying FOGS

For all of you in the know I have added on a new link to on this site. The first blog that I ever read was Zack Braff's FOGS (Friends of Garden State) blog. Anyway he has now moved over to his own website now and it looks really good. If you ever want a real laugh check out the old one. It was written while he was finishing GS and all through the publicity tours for it. He is one witty guy. I always enjoyed reasons it because it would make me laugh the things that he came up with. How does someone think like that, I wonder? That is the sort of personality that I strive to have-to mixed results.

I don't know if you guys saw Garden State or not but if you haven't I reccomend you put down your computer and quickly make your way to the nearest video store. I rented it one night and the very next day I bought both the movie and the soundtrack. To this day year later I still listen to the soundtrack at least a couple of times a week. It is on permenant rotation on my ipod. I would watch the movie more often, but I lent it to a friend who- if she doesn't return it soon will become a frienemy.

This movie just speaks to me, the lonliness, the anger that he feels, the belief that there should be something more to our lives than what we allow ourselves to experience. Do you get angrey at the people around you for how your life has turned out or do you get angrey at yourself for allowing things to happen to you while your just along for the ride?
This is the only life that I have and I want to be happy.

It is scarry when you realize that because then you have to figure out where do I go from here? I think that the thing that I love most about Garden State is that it ends on that very question, it is not wrapped up in a happy little bow like most movies are nowadays. Where do we go from here? Who knows.

Viva La Video!

My local video store is going out of business and I cant help but feel responcible. With the evolution of online rentals such as the netflix that I am such a fan of, I hardly ever went to rent a movie. At four bucks a pop it wears on a working girls budget. Plus I have an addiction to off-beat widescreen movies. I find that so many video stores have the idea that if it isnt a mainstream full screen flic than it is not worth having. This particular video store while yes it did have a foreign movie section, they crammed it in with the pornos. They were even in a seperate room. I would have to sneak in there everytime I wanted to watch something with a subtitle. If you havent caught it already, I do not live in a very cultured town.

Sometimes I just want to move away. Funny though Kate wants us to move to Madison. When I say that I want to move, I really wasn't thinking of moving to a more rural area. Madison is a crappy suburb of the crappy town that I live in. The place that she wants us to go is not even close to town, I swear it is a fourty five minute drive into town. That towns movie store is two shelves in a gas station. I am not happy.

To the victors go the spoils though. The video store is selling all of their stock dirt cheap. I have bought like eight movies in the past two days. Haha!

day of sloth

Today I had oneof my favorite sort of days. A day of sloth. I stayed in bed reading and then moved to the couch where I remained the rest of the day. Since it was a cloudy, rainy day, my projector was visible in the middle of the afternoon. I finished watching The Thin Man series- who knew that there was like six of them.

From then I moved onto watching special features of other movies that I hadn't done before. I love special features. The whole movie making process facinates me. Tonight it was the special features for Moulin Rouge There were a ton of them. I have owned this movie for well over a year and I had yet to watch a single one.

Nowadays before I read what the movie is about, I check out what special features are listed. I hate it when dvd's are skimpy with the extras. For two reasons 1. because I want to know more and 2. because there is always the chance that the movie companies are trying to scam you into buying two copies of the same movie. They do this by first puting out a crappy disk with special feature that they boast as a trailer and an option for subtitles. (wofrickenwho) They then a while later put out a special edition dvd with all the previously withheld buckets of special features. Let me tell you I fall for it. Sometimes I just cant wait and because there are probably more goobers like me out there, those companies will continue to get away with it.

I don't know if you have gleaned this yet but I love movies. I will really watch any sort of movie but I especially admire movies that are done in a different and unique way. I find that most movies have become so boring and formulaic (is that even a word?) Baz Luhrman really has an eye and I also enjoy Scott Free productions like Man on Fire or Domino. OOH also individual movies such as Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind or Amelie.

I just realized what time it is and I have to work tomorrow. Which means that I have to pry my ass off this couch and haul it upstairs to go to bed.

Hottie McHothot

As a reward for those of you still tuned in here is a little dish I like to call- Hottie McHothot. He is the absolute sexiest thing alive. I own a movie that he is in where he plays the mysterious stranger. That's how he is billed too, the stranger. That just makes him sexier.

Enjoy Ladies!

Alright it took all afternoon but I hace finally had it out with not only my bleeping cable company but also the company that makes my wireless router. Trust me this is how my afternoon went-- "It's not our fault its theirs" to which they replied, "Nu-uh!" Either way here I am.

Lets see I have so much to catch up on. We should take another look at Mr. McHothot to fortify ourselves. Ahh... okay, I am ready now.

I no longer work at Zebs do da! Do da! I no longer have to wear an apron to work. And the very best part is no wicked witch known as D. No actually the very best part is that I have received a substantial payraise better benefits to work basically the same job. The job I work now is pretty much a desk job were I work on computers all day. Get this one of my responsibilities is to write up articles for their blog. What a hoot! Of course they don't know that even though I wrote on my resume that I liked to write, I did not say that I was a good writer.

Of course as with every job there is the inevitable down side. We are what is considered the first line of defense or if you are a chess player we would be considered the pawns. I am quite the wuss so I dread those angry phone calls. I tell myself that putting myself out there like this, making myself deal with conflict is making myself a better person. While becoming a tougher person is on my todo list, until I get used to it I am quite uncomfortable. I just try to think of all of the people who have to be strong and deal with unhappy people every day. I think of what Josh said to Charlie when he was getting the job as the presidents body man. He said, "There are going to be times where people want things or more time than the president wants and some of these people will be presidents or kings." Something like that.

Okay I think that I am done for the evening. (Check it out I figured how to do links in the text!)

f*#%*ing internet connection

It has been so long since I have blogged that my own site didnt even recognize me. I signed on and it was all like "Do I know you? You look like someone that I used to know, but you cant be that person because she has obviously forsaken me" I appologized and it has let me back in on a trial basis. I have to say that I think that I am the only person in the whole wide world who cant get her cable internet to work for any amount of time. The worse thing about it is that the connection totally knows its smarter than me. All the time it teases just saying "Ha Ha, you just think your connected right." Now it wont connect me at all. I am currently sitting outside my friends house (she's not home) sponging off her service. Oh dont worry about it, I'm paying for it--- In blood. Being that we live in the wilds of NH I am being eaten by bugs.

I don't know how much longer I'm going to make it.

Lots of new things to report, however I do not have enough blood in my system to write it all now. Lets just say Ding Dong the witch is dead, the straw finally broke the camels back, it all came out like a barrel of monkeys.

I no longer work at Zebs!

I think that I will leave you at that beacause I am going to be scratching the rest of the day as it is. (and my laptop battery I swear lasts no longer than a half hour)

F*#%*ing internet connection, its on now!